Hello, I'm all new here and I want to share my "holidays" too... Maybe, this will be advice for people who hesitate to make the step between virtuality and reality. Maybe not....
I'm french, very good professional situation, many friends, happy family... All a man can ask in this world, I can have it. The problem is that I'm not happy in couple with my wife and not good in communication. So, I started to chat on webcam, in the beginning it was really to test my "seduction capacity" with words. I know it's silly bc webcam girls are in a way "programmed" to be seduced. I mean, it's a game, and I know that in this game, nothing is completely really true. Anyway.
So, I suscribed on a site in July, and started by a research in physical settings that matched with my own "ideal". I found some girls, and finally start to talk with one. After first private show, she sent me a message on the site telling me that she was interested in me. I took a second private show where I wrote her my email adress, and important thing, told her that it would be my last private show. That I didn't want to pay for talking with her and that if she really wanted to talk with me, to know me better, she was knowing how to reach me.
She sent me a first email, and we start to have correspondance like this and in free chat only. In our mails, we talk a lot about our personal lives, but I never mentioned my professional situation neither the fact that I was married. She told me that she was having strong feelings for me, and I have to say that I felt (and still feel) something strong for her too. A kind of connection, I had never felt something like that before. I asked her to come in Paris for a few days, because I really wanted to see her in REAL. She agreed but we considered it was too complicated because she is from Ukraine and need visa. So, I said that I would come to see her in Kiev. We planned it for September. Then we exchanged phone numbers and correspondance became daily, even many times per day.
August was a period of huge hesitation for me. On the one hand, I thought that I was completely crazy to go to a country I didn't know, with a girl I knew only from virtuality.... On the other hand, I felt an uncontrollable desire for this meeting. I really wanted to know how it could be in reality with her.
So I booked everything and finally did it. And it was the most perfect holidays of all my life, I felt really myself. We forget everything for 3 short days.
Then we went back to our lives in France for me, in Ukraine for her. Separation is hard, and I think it's even harder for her. And I told her all truth about me, she forgave me.... We continue to see each other everyday, off the site, on our personal webcams at home.
Worst is to come. My wife learned all the story. I really wanted to divorce for long time but never had the strength to admit it myself. Maybe I have unconsciously let my phone open one night . She searched in it and finally found sms. Anyway, now we are separated. The hardest part is to make people understand that I'm in love with a woman that work on a sex-site, even if she never did or does nude shows. My parents, friends, wife had very rude words for me and for my lover. I heard that I was manipulated, maybe enrolled in a sect, that she was a whore, only looking to get a long time visa to leave her country. I really don't think so. I see psychiatrists and I'm not crazy. I'm in love. But I'm not ready to leave everything for her. I think we will start a love on distance relationship, with advantages and and inconveniences. I will go back to see her in one month. Then she will come in France, and we'll do like that to see if we can really match. I'm not thinking about asking her to live in France and she never tell me about living Ukraine, I don't believe in marriage anymore. I'm just in mood of enjoying life and enjoying this nascent love. I learn russian, she learns french. Carpe diem.
As you read, we never talk about money except to say that we needed to share every costs of meetings : Taxi, Planes, Appartments, Food. We agreed on that from the very start.
Finally, in my position, I think it's possible to meet someone thanks to internet, even if this person is far away. We just have to be careful on some subjects like work or money to avoid scammers. Nothing replaces a good conversation, face to face, with honesty.
I'm lucky, I took risks, but in my case, it's worth.
I hope it had been helpful to some hesitating guys here. And I'm open to read your opinion about my story, or to answer questions if you have some.
Regards ant thanks for reading,