Well now we are getting somewhere. I hate to step on the OP thread as well.
Allow me to refresh everyones memory. I hate to bring up the past but after close to 10 years it still is relevent. I used to think hey this is all great and fun. I had the same view as many who currently play and pay in this world of sexual fantasy. It was such fun and then the truth hits you and then teaches you a life lesson. Ironically, I don't see any measureable improvement but for a select few these days.
I know quite well why this work exists. I understand quite well about why men visit as well. I also know, experienced and observed quite a bit of what can happen to individuals within the fantasy world that allows women to becomed empowered so to speak. To be in control of their own destiny, to obtain what the real world fails to supply them to survive or be happy. Not only from their side but from both sides of the cam.
After a while no matter what the fuck you try to do, whether it is being logical, truthful, honest, a good customer, a friend, and even become quite intimate with individuals online, in one way or another, in the end, I have discovered, that it basically is just plain fodder as a former ex moderator would constantly remind everyone here that did make their way onto this forum. Even the models would try and enlighten many who found their way here. Bless their hearts to a degree. I guess it has become survival of the fittest.
After some time, one has to recognize that only part of the truth or half truths are given or some just outright lie because it is in their own best interests. I have known many a cam model who bluntly told me and probably others to get the fuck out. That told it straight, didn't hold back and were genuinely human with some semblence of a heart, a conscience and respect for others.That they had a heart or a conscience to do what they knew was right for some they knew that did not deserve to get hustled or get their hearts broken or their wallets milked dry. Or left for a shell of their former selves. Of couse it's all business, but damn, business has its ethics and morals too(I ain't talking about the sexual entertainment either). Some models or women just can't be the predators that others become. Thank god for that too.
I try to reason it all out, logically and rationally. I understand that there are those who find nothing at all wrong with this work and how the "game" is played. Sorry but after so long for some people, they find that this fantasy and the stuff that occurs within it, is again all fodder. To me personally, it went from pure fun and happiness to pure horror, lies, and deceit on so many levels. I will not apologize for telling it like it is as I see it now, just like the women and members who enjoy and love this work, play in it, and speak their minds too. To each their own. Just don't come to me and tell me lies and bullshit, when I know better. I have just as much right to say it ain't so in other ways, question them, and hope no one gets hurt in this world of fantasy that billions of dollars are earned and spent. I wished it would just be like any other business, where people purchase a product or service and are content, happy and satisfied. But as we can see by just reading these women themselves, it just ain't that black or white, is it. When I read some of the things these women who work their magic that they consider their jobs, it just reads like a con game or some dysfunctional world that they deal with.As it seems,it is the bottom of the barrel so to speak, with humans.It needs to be told and not be some dirty little secret that is hidden. Shit, when you step back and view it objectively, it almost is a manual on how to use the weaknesses or deficiencies of their fellow man. I read about how they feel about members, generally. If they aint a dollar sign, which is the best of the best, then they are considered all sorts of other descriptors, which is the worst of the worst. Sorry if I have more compassion about the assholes, dickheads, sheep, morons, or whatever others care to describe them as than just the dollar sign we seem to idolize and might do anything to obtain. I ain't so shallow.
I would hope you as a human, would not wish to see anyone played like a fine musical instrument by professionals who you think don't know a lick about their clientele. Let me tell you something, they know how this works and how to pick the fruit that grows within this world of fantasy. They play their game, their hustle, from every aspect imaginable angle and do it quite well. Supply and demand I have always said. That is what both feeds this business and also may be making it harder for many others as well. I think we sold our souls to the almighty dollar worldwide. Congratulations to us as humans.
Perhaps,this fantasy world is a byproduct of what is wrong with reailty. If that is the reality of it all then we as a society are in a heap of trouble. Just more than my 2 cents here.
Lastly, you didn't retire. You still visit and do private shows. So that isn't really being retired nor is that really the proper word for it. Retirement really is when someone stops working and relaxes for the remainder of their lives. As far as this forum, I am sorry to say, that models have their own forums where they can teach each other how to be better entrepreneurs. This forum was never really about promoting camming but more about understanding why it exists and what may or may not occur to those within it from both sides of the data stream. It's funny, how I can find out what they really are saying about this all, but they would never dare admit it here. This forum was not there for them to learn how to earn better but it did help them in some ways on how to protect themselves and their customers too. But there is a fine line between those 2 things. How dare a member blame a model for fucking them over. Or how dare a member fuck over a model. Ah, why is that? So now I found the truth, written and spoken by the very models themselves. Not because I am on some crusade as you say. Unless siding for one group over another has become what life is all about these days, then I am a champion of the underdog. Figure out who may or may not be the underdog these days.